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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Hey Ram!
Why there is so much of hullaboo about Gandhi's last words?How does it affects a commoner whether he said"Hey Ram" or died silently.When no one is paying any heed to what he constantly preached through out his life, the message of non violence and truth, why that much importance to his last words?Its just to grab attention, otherwise why the claimer is braking news now?
Posted by Neelima Arora :: 3:21 AM :: 2 Comments: ---------------------------------------
Monday, January 30, 2006
Gandhi : Different People , different Meanings
Today is Martyrs Day. A supposed holiday again. I got up to my mom’s grouching while surfing the channels to see people paying homage to Gandhiji’s last resting place at Rajghat but getting annoyed with not much coverage . In office also, no one even remembers the day .Not much a believer in Gandhi ji’s ideology myself, I will not dig much in past, his status as nation’s father, his contribution to our independence, his realization of importance of Swadeshi, Dalit upliftment, his stand against untouchability. But still I find it a sad part that we remember him only on 2 october, 30th January or in elections speeches by leaders. For many of the common people Gandhi has become a synonym of Currency. Here I am reminded of a dialogue from a film when a commoner ask the officer “
Gandhi ji ki tasveer ke samne baithe ho, kuch to sharam karo” and prompt came the reply” Tum bhi Gandhi dikhao, aur kam karao”.What an irony?To some, Gandhi means an ideology, to others, he is just a face on currency notes.
[Mahatma Gandhi]
[Martyrs day]
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You must be the change you wish to see in the world
“It is easier to be a doer as only few people in this world will follow that path, whereas most will follow the path of getting the credit for what others have done, hence there will be less competition to follow that path”. This has been a quote written in my Diary since 10th standard and every now and then, I have to turn pages, to see this, read these words again and again, and to feel the strength they give. I agree totally with it but does it make me a less whiner?I grouch when I am not given the credit of my work, and even long for that pat on the back, a word of appreciation .Every now and then, I decide not to aim for perfection in the work, to be more casual in my approach. But again, a new work assigned and I found myself working with same enthu, same zeal, knowing well that again the same story will be repeated . May be I have to blame my stars for it, Being a virgo means always a seeker for perfectionism.Ek asha hai jo tooti nahin, ek ummed hai jo hath pakde liye ja rahi hai, kahti ja rahi hai chalne ko har dam.fir bhi ek koshish, ek prayas kuch badalne ka.I know that nothing is as permanent as a change itself but I believe it should be in the positive direction.
Today I am very happy, the reason may sound weird but Vivek has blogrolled me and he is the person whose blog I visited first and that was my beginning in the blog World.
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Friday, January 27, 2006
Republic Day
Yes, I am late,, late in putting the post, late in sharing my yesterday experiences with you, late in wishing you for the "Republic day".
Is it only because of my irregularity, or the network problem can be put to blame? Yes, this sounds easy but will it not be lie.
I wanted to write this post but , lying in my cosy bed, watching Republic day procession , and watching most of serials putting forth their patriotism,I felt like ok, I can post in the evening, then it dragged to night. Getting up from my bed leaving cosy warm quilt seemed to be too much effort.After all this was a luxury I could not enjoy for past several weeks.But still I would like to share with you, the talks I had with few people(some known, some strangers)yesterday.
I just got curious to know what Republic day means to different people.
Here are some of the answers:
" Republic Day, are bhai ye kya sawal hua, Republic Day mane republic Day, Bole to, Parade, Flag Hoisting, Cultural Programme, What else?"On probing little further, " apna India aajad hua tha us din,itnaich nai maloom tum padhe like manush ko!"
2nd Reply" Republic Day , its a gazetted holiday, apne liye to sab din barabar hain, kya Independence day, kya Republic day.bas chutti milni chahiye"
3rd reply" Republic day ko hamara constitution bana tha"
" Republic dayko kya special hota hai" Poochne par ek house wife ka answr, baccho ko cultural programme, fancy dress , aur competition ke liye taiyaar karna padta hai, its so much of competition these days........." aur unki school puran vahan se chaloo ho kar , kab government, mahngai, aur sales tak aa gayi. pata hi nahin chala, jab pata chala, 2:30 ho gaye the.
kuch padhe likhe mahunubhavo ne ye answers bhi diya, ki itna celebrate karne ki jaroorat kya hai, thik hai hua hoga is din constitution lagoo, har sal is par itna taam jham kyon, itne kharch mein to har gareeb ko kuch din ka gujar basar ka paisa mil jaye, to accha ho, " baat sahi thi par shayad alfaz aur kahne ke dhang se republic day ki spirit par pani pd gaya.
neeche desh bhakti ke geet chal rahe the aur TV par manoj kumar ki kranti. maine bhi socha ki ye bevajah ka survey band kiya jae. yoon bhi sabne apni sahuliyat se republic day ke arth bana liye hain,
par shaam ko slums(mere ghar ke nikat hi slums hai) ki do bacchiyaan ek chote se box mein toffee le kar aayi to ye soch kar ki unka birthday hoga, unko sweets dete hue , ek pen unko gift ke liye badhaya, aur unhone kaha" Birthday nahin, Republic day" I was touched.I asked who told you to distribute toffee on republic day, she replied that her parents.I also got the first correct answer for my question from them.Dhanya hai vo abhibhavak jinhone unhein ye sanskaar diye. Utni samajh di ki sirf patriotic songs suna, leaders ke flag hoisting karne par taaliyaan bajana aur patriotic songs sunna hi republic day nahin, mahatvapoorna hai chetna failana , vo 50 paise ki toffee ke madhyam se hi kyon na ho, par bahut se logo ko ek matlab ki baat jata gayi, kyon na hum republic day ko ek naya roop dein"A day for Reaching out, Reaching for those who have slept, Reaching out for those who are deprived, a day for bringing hope and a Day for reinforcing our faith in our constitution".
[Republic day]
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Ye safar bahut hai kathin magar
Difficult time, stressed mind and dwindled heavily in emotions, sometimes, I am unable to react also.There were times, words used to come so easily par ab to shabdon par bhi pahre hain.
sapno ko tootte dekhna, un ke tukdon ko sahejte apne haatho ko jakhmi hote dekhna, ye to jindagi ka hissa ban gaya tha, par jab vo sapne apne apno ke haatho se gir ke tootein, to dard aur bhi hota hai, tees aur bhi uthti hai.
yes, there are tensions, at work, in lab, at home but giving up, is out of question. Escapism was never my tendency, I will fight back.
Its pretty difficult to have a win win situatiion when you are deciding which aspect of your life is important to you? What is more important, your ethics, beliefs on which you have grown up, for which you have fought many battles in past or this easy way, these short cutswhich definitely can yield you huge benefits?They say, principles are things of past.But, for me, its a way of life.
Sometimes, I lose faith i my abilities, found myself as misfit and jo manjile kabhi apne liye chuni thi, jin khwahisho ki chadar buni thi, door najar hoti hain, shitij se pare.
par, fir sar uthata hai mera aatma vishvas aur haath pakad mujhe uthata hai , aur main chal padti hoon us manjil ki aur, kyonki
"Dil naummed to nahin, nakaam hi to hai,
lambi hai gham ki shaam , magar shaam hi to hai."
Posted by Neelima Arora :: 1:48 AM :: 4 Comments: ---------------------------------------
Mere Sirhane jalao sapne
मेरे सिरहाने जलाओ सपने,
ज़रा सी मुझको तो नींद आए.
ख़्याल चलते हैं आगे आगे,
मैं उनकी छाँव में चल रही हूँ,
ना जाने किस मोम की बनी हूँ,
कि कतरा कतरा पिघल रही हूँ.
मैं सहमी रहती हूँ कि
नींद में भी कोई ख्वाब ना डॅस जाए
कभी बुलाता है कोई साया,
कभी उड़ाती है धूल कोई
मैं एक भटकी हुई सी ख़ुशबू,
तलाश करती हूँ फूल कोई
ज़रा किसी शाख पैर तो बैठू,
ज़रा तो मुझ को हवा झुलाए.
(A song from Maya Memsahab explaining my insomnia and its cure)
Posted by Neelima Arora :: 1:34 AM :: 1 Comments: ---------------------------------------
Taste of Success
Khushiyon ke phool liye kai baar noukaein aati hai,
lahro se takra takra kar ,
man ke darvaje khatkhatati hai,
kinare par jo dekhe lalchai najron se,
bas chatpatate rah jaate hai,
jo dalein apne man ki nouka sahas aur vishvas liye,
bhavar se dare bina, in uddand dharo mein,
haasya ki surbhi vo hi paate hein.
khete jaate naiya jeevan ki,
sved baha kar, ashru ganva kar,
par mann mein bhaya naa aane dete
thak kar choor ho tan man ,
par nairashya ko paanv nahi failane dete,
jo man mein pran kar le na rookne ka, na jhukne ka,
vo hi swad safalta ka chakh paate hain.
(Neelima Arora)
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Jeekar dekh liya,
jeene mein kitna marna padta hai,
apni sharto par jeene ki chah sab mein rahti hai
kintu jindagi anugraho ke kitane aashtraya gahti hai
kya kya kahna, kya kya sunna, kya kya karna padta hai
samjhoto ki suiyaan milti, dhan ke dhaage bhi mil jaate
sambandho ke fate vastra to silno ko sil bhi jaate
seevan koun kahan kab udhade
itna darna padta hai.
Jeekar dekh liya , jeene mein kitna marna padta hai
(Shiv Bahadur Bhadhoria )
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
BEST PROJECT of 2005-2006
We(Our Bioinformatics Team at IICT have bagged the award for" Project of Excellence in 2005-2006"on our DST
sponsored project " CONTROL OF MALARIA THROUGH INTEGRATED INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY TOOLS IN ARUNACHAL PRADESH".My guide Dr.U.S.N.Murty recieved the award from Mr.C.C.Singhpo, Minister of Health and Human welfare" I am very happy about it. Its the outcome of 1-1/2 year long work.Par " Abhi Sitaronn se aage jahan aur bhi hain.............." Lot of changes, I m planning to incorporate but what can stop me for being happy at this moment for our success.Time to relax or double up efforts. I m confused.
[Arunachal Pradesh]
[IICT]
[Dr.U.S.N.Murty]
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Sailing through.........
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Buniyaad is returning back...........
Morning Mom told that Buniyaad is going to start again on TV and she was nostalgic about it. I remember till now, how she used to wait for it and even my Biji (grandmom) used to clean her specs , aur sardi mein rajai mein bhi thithurti kaise moongphaliyaan le kar baith jaati thi(yeah groundnuts, not popcorns) . Unhone partition ki trasdi jo sahi thi, hum chote hi the,hum mein se kisi ko samajh hi naa aata ki kyon baar baar vo chashma saaf karne lag jaati hainn, aur moongphaliyon ki giriyan nikalne mein mashgool haath, tham kar hontho par aa jate the. Vo kahti ki sab kuch aankhon ke samne ghatit hua lagta hai, bade hone par bhi hum poochte ki kuch shikayat hai, jindagi se, aankhein to naam hoti par dabe hotho par halki si muskkrahat ki rekha kheench jaati, " Nahin, Raab ne jo diya,. accha tha" koi aakrosh nahin, koi pachtawa nahin. Kaash main bhi itna saral soch pati, ye chinta ki gathri kuch pal kandhon se utar chal pati jindagi se kadam milate hue, aur kah pati ki" Pakdo mujhe" .
[Buniyaad]
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Ajnabi sur...........
Yesterday , I was feeling weary, tired and frustrated.I even did not realise how the time was passing and by the time, I started gathering my things to leave from lab, Darkness had blanketed surroundings.My feet were refusing to take another step , but had to keep a promise, So chal diye .
is thake shareer aur daghdha man ko le kar jab tak ghar pahunchi, urja jawab de chuki thi. But as I knocked the door, I found it opened and Himangi, a sweet innocent kid came from behind the door , just in a hope of startling me." Tum Darr gayi thi na?"
ab us bacchi ko koun samjhaye, jindagi mein akasmat hi itne surprises aa jaate hai, samay ki choukhat par, sahsa hi ki darna to bhool gayi hoon, haan kabhi kabhi vismit ho jaati hoon, kabhi baanhein khol kar swagat karti hoon, aur kuch shocking ghatit ho jaye to kabhi kamar kas kar kahti hoon" Aa gaye tum?" kabhi tham kar rah jaati hoon kinkartavyavimoodh ho, aur kabhi chounk kar kadam peeche hat jaate hain.haan, kabhi kabhi muskura bhi leti hoon par darna? darr to mano bhool gayi hoon.
Mon was sitting on the jhoola, humming something, eyes closed, so much in peace with herself that I sat there silently watching her. As she opened her eyes, She gave me the biggest grin , as she was caught in her act. Yes, She has left singing long back but still catches some time when no one is around , hummming or whispering as if not letting anyone know the notes and scale raising , the pitch changing with every word, as if she is afraid of displaying her pain.But I can see the pain floating in your eyes even if it can't speak, I can clearly feel it. Sometimes, i want to tell her, ki chal apne dard se kaho ki mere dard se kuch baatein kar le. tab shayad aapke swar aap ko ajnabi na lagein.
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Remembering him?
Remembering him!!!
This was a very innocent question when a friend of many year asked me going off the handle many times, yesterday.Where is the question of remembering, when I have not forgotten him for a millisecond also? Though Harivansh Rai Bachchan died in 2003, could it make me forget him .I had grown up on his poems , quoting him every now and then, humming his verses whenever the world showed ugly side, whenever I lost friends, I just wiped away my tears and tried to move on, keeping the pain in the heart drawing inspiration from his lines .In fact, till date , I have kept those Hindi books with me which introduced me first to his work .That poem" beet gaye din ve, beet jayenge ye bhi" always gave me a message to move on.I was so fond of Bachchan ji and his madhushala, that whenever a friend wanted me to gift something very special, they will come, hands folded back, saying" You will not believe what I have brought for you?" and I used to say without batting my eyelid"Madhushala"That way I gathered 7 copies and I could not part with any of those....
shayad vo bachpana hi ho .But even today, whenever I m depressed, happy or lonely, its Bachchan ji's work which give me solace.
[Harivansh Rai Bachchan]
Posted by Neelima Arora :: 12:00 AM :: 2 Comments: ---------------------------------------
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Reading Mind
Reading mind.......
From the beginning, I was good at reading other people's mind(but unable to know what's going on in my own). Don't believe it? check this out
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Fir pukaro mujhe
In ghani amraiyon mein,
in hari taraiyon mein
fir pukaro mujhe,
naam lo mera .
ki goonje ye dhara.
Roshni ka ek sheesha saaf kar do,
fir andhera cheer kar us paar kar do
bhed kar aakash ki tanhaiyon ko
fir pukaro mujhe,
naam lo mera .
ki goonje ye dhara.
har disha ko ek naya sooraj daan kar do,
fir ujalo mein nayi pehchaan bhar do
foonk kar is hawa mein shahnaiyon ko,
fir pukaro mujhe,
naam lo mera .
ki goonje ye dhara.
baadalon mein dard hai, kuch teesta hai,
sard aatish mein kahin kuch bheegta hai,
paar kar ke hriday ki gahraiyon ko,
fir pukaro mujhe,
naam lo mera .
ki goonje ye dhara.
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main fir chahkoonga..........
Main fir chahkoonga,
chidiyon ki tarah,
baanhe khol doonga,
jharte kohreke beech nachoonga,
thak kar choor ho jane tak,
vishvas hoon, tootunga nahin
yon sandharbho ke
kaat diye jaane se kya hota hai,
arth unka
mujh mein hi to jeeta hai
ki mein har tootan ke baad
rupayit kar leta hoon
apne aap ko fir se
mein to lahar hoon, chattano se takra ,
char char ho
ret par bikhar vileen ho jaana,
aant nahin
aarambh hai meri yaatra ka,
ki mera har samarpan
mujhe sarthak kar jaata hai
main fir dahkoonga
dhalte sooraj ki tarah, aur chodoonga apni rakthabha
lahro par , ped ki shakhon par
chattanon se nikal kar, bahte jharnon par,
ki meri aatma ka sangeet
ghar loutte pakshiyon ki marmarahat mein
visarjit ho, tirobhut ho jayega
kale padte jal ki gahraiyon mein
fir se utarne ke liye
( Suresh Rituparna)
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Monday, January 16, 2006
MicroLivestock: Are you game for it?
The thought of eating insects may be very unsettling to most people in this day and age. However, in many cultures insects and other arthropods have been eaten as a staple and/or as a delicacy.Over 1200 species of insects are used as food by people throughout the world.An interesting example of mass harvesting of edible insects is the moth feasts that occurred in the Bogong mountains of New South Wales. Insects are an inexpensive substitute for meat in many developing countries.Grasshoppers in Mexico, termites, palm grubs and ants in Colombo, June beetles, grasshoppers, ants, mole crickets, water beetles, katydids, locusts and dragonfly larvae.in Phillipines, giant waterbug in Asia, Sago grubs, in Papua New Guinea form a regular constituent of their Cuisine.
A Food for Thought or an insect for food:Now That is the Question?
Can Insects replace our choice of Platter in leaning future, answer may lies in yes seeing few reasons and statistics.Most insects are cheap, tasty (oh Really!)and a good natural protein source requiring less land and feed than raising cows or pigs. Many insects are far cleaner(I agree) than other creatures. For example, grasshoppers and crickets eat fresh, clean, green plants whereas crabs, lobsters and catfish eat any kind of foul, decomposing material as a scavenger (bottom water feeder). By weight, termites, grasshoppers, caterpillars, weevils, house flies and spiders are better sources of protein than beef, chicken, pork or lamb according to the Entomological Society of America. (Quite noticeable, in view of ban on beef selling and pork in different communities and countries owing to religious sentiments .Insects are low in cholesterol and low in fats a s veterinary bills.Insects are easy to raise. There is no manure forking. No hay bale lifting. No veterinary bills.Most people do not mind butchering insects. The butchery of insects is very simple compared with that of cattle or poultry, and nowhere near as gory.(Till now, I have not heard of any animal activists inIdia raising a protest against this, the likes of Amla, where are u? Raising insects is environmentally friendly. They require minimal space per pound of protein produced, have a better feed to meat ratio than any other animal you can raise, and are very low on the food chain.An issue of the Food Insects Newsletter reports that 80 percent of the world's population eats insects intentionally and 100 percent eat them unintentionally(.Oh My God!What Happens to my vegetarianism then?)
These men's multi legged companion can sure provide a solution to man's hunger .
Any ways , even after reading all this information , are you game for it?
[Insects]
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Busy
Today I am very busy , making a presentation on " Insects and Information technology: New arenas to explore....".Getting so much info which I never thought can be available .
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
prayas....
Laharon se dar kar nouka paar nahi hoti,
koshish karne walo k kabhi haar nahin hoti
Nanhi chinti jab dana lekar chalti hai,
chadhti deewaron par sou bar isalti hai,
man ka vishvas rago mein sahas bharta hai
chadh kar girna gir kar chadhna na akharta ai,
mehanat uski har baar bekar nahin hoti.
Koshish karne walo ki abhi haar nahin hoti.
dubkiyan sindhu mein gotakhor lagata hai,
ja ja kar khali haath lout kar aata hai
milte na sahaj hi moti gahre pani ein
badhta doona vishvas isi hairani ein,
mutthi khali uski har baar nahin hoti
koshish karne walo ki kabhi haar nahin hoti
asafalta ek chunoti hai, sweekar karo,
kya kami rah gayi, dekho aur sweekar karo
jab tak na saal ho neend chain ki tyago tum,
sangharshon ka maidan chod mat bhago tum,
kuch kiye bina hi jayajayakar nahi hoti
kohish karne walo ki kabhi haar nahin hoti
(Late Shri. HarivanshRai Bachchan)
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Show the world you are alive
Usoolon pe jo aanch aaye to takraana zaroori hai
Agar zinda hain to zinda nazar aana zaroori hai
Nayi umro ki khudmukhtaariyon ko kaun samjhaaye
Kahan se bach ke chalna hai kahan jaana zaroori hai
Thake haare parinde jab basere ke liye lautein
Saleeka mand saakhon ka lachak jaana zaroori hai.
Saleeka hi nahin shaayad use mahsoos karne ka
Jo kehta hai khuda hai to nazar aana zaroori hai
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