Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Finally

Today , all of a sudden a dream came true.As such , it was not even in my remotest dream. When I joined CCMB asa Project Assistant on 6th November 2000, I never knew what kind of boss I will be getting. The word boss itself instilled some fear in me. Sense of this fear deepened when I met him. Dr.Ramesh K.Aggrawal, an iconic figure in his field.
I remember my first meeting with him,Scene by scene today also, those walls, those curtains, that poster but what I remembered most was the confidence oozing from his voice. He used to correct me at every step, scold me,shout at me. I used to be so afraid of him. I remember forgetting my poem lines which I was reciting as a tribute to him on Hindi Day when I saw him staring at me. I went Blah Bhah and made quite a scene. Despite all the ease and friendly environment he used to create in the lab, I used to fear those deep staring eyes. All the time, I was struggling to meet his high expectations,fumbling to be at par with the colleagues he used to praise. Trying hard not to do mistakes but at the back of my mind, there was always my ailing mother, problems at home, rising depts, my own deteiorating health. And I did mistakes, mistakes and more mistakes.But he just gave an understanding nod all the time making me feel more guilty. I used to feel guilty that I was not doing justice to my work. But used to pledge every day, may be tomorrow,I will do something for which he will say " Good, My dear friend" in his majestic style But that day never came. When I went to see my mother, I could not return back leaving her alone in such bad shape and hadto resign. He supported me at that time also,when he should have shouted at me, be mad at me for not even maintaining communication , informing my decision, for loss of his project. I never dared to tell him that how much I respect him ,nor could I tell him that I see him as my mentor. I just adore his perfectionist nature and love towards science. I was secretly harbouring this feeling that some day I may do some thing to hear those words" Good, My dear friend!". Today was the day.He said that I deserve all the success after my struggle. He just made my day. I don't know what I have done to get an appreciation from him. Thank you Sir,I can not thank you enough. Now , I believe that fortune favors those who go through all the struggle and wishes have power to become true. Now, all the struggle seems worthwhile and I can now believe these words from my favorite poet ,Late D. Harivansh Rai Bachchan.

"मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

कभी नही जो तज सकते हैं अपना न्यायोचित अधिकार
कभी नही जो सह सकते हैं शीश नवा कर अत्याचार
एक अकेले हो या उनके साथ खड़ी हो भारी भीड़
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

निर्भय हो कर घोषित करते जो अपने उद्गगार विचार
जिनकी जिव्हा पर होता हैं उनके अंतर का अंगार
नही जिन्हे चुप कर सकती हैं आतताईओं की शमशीर
मैं हून उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

नही झुका करते जो दुनिया से करने को समझौता
उँचे से उँचे सपनो को देते रहते जो न्यौता
दूर देखती जिनकी पैनी आँख भविष्या का ताम चियर
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

जो अपने कंधो से पर्वत से बढ़ टक्कर लेते हैं
पथ की बाधाओ को जिनके पाँव चुनौती देते हैं
जिनको बाँध नही सकती हैं लोहे की बेदी ज़ंजीर
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

जो चलते हैं अपने छप्पर के उपर लूका धर कर
हार जीत का सौदा करते प्राणो की बाज़ी पर
कूद उद्दादी में नही पलट कर फिर जो ताका करते तीर
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

जिनको यह अवकाश नही हैं देखे कब तारे अनुकूल
जिनको यह परवाह नही हैं कब तक भद्र कब दीक्षूल
जिनके हाथों की चाबूक से चलती हैं उनकी तकदीर
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़

तुम हो कौन, कहो जो मुझसे सही ग़लत पथ लो तो जान
सोच सोच कर पूछ पूछ कर बोलो कब चलता तूफान
सत पथ वो है जिस पर अपनी छाती ताने जाते वीर
मैं हूँ उनके साथ खड़ी जो सीधी रखते अपनी रीढ़"

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